old hurts comin' through shiny and new

i'm not sure when i am going to learn the lessons that i seem to trip over over and over and over again. here i am- zowee. different flavor but it's still heartbreak. funny how i felt it days before. i knew something was on the horizon. something drove me to begin the process of grieving and making sure i have what i need.
then the information is confirmed and like Michael Jackson's passing i am almost conflicted- surprised but i knew it was true and even saw it coming. i find my feet on the ground finally but i can't trust the view yet- my eyes have not adjusted to be able to know what is really what and to TRUST what i see.

these are my favorite new quotes...
Behavior is what a man does, not what he thinks, feels, or believes. (or tries to tell you! which brings us to our next quote)
Dogs are better than human beings because they know but do not tell.
Thank you Emily Dickinson


now i know why grandma always says keep your legs closed, your eyes opened and listen to your gut.
in the end i win. no matter what.
haha. yay for me.