Wednesday, April 28, 2010

opening up to reveal the ineffable - read it all b/c it's real & good & real good!

I am a huge fan of Producer Mark Lipsky's blog

It's just what a blog should be: quick, well written and full of contagious energy. It's become my daily affirmation. It's as if I have been introduced to a kindred spirit who is not flaky or pretentious or worried- it's the abundance that keeps it alive and pushes us to make art by any means necessary. his messages are all about it can be done and it's done all the time and let's do it not because it's cool but because you know you can't do anything else.

I really wanted to do what I thought was the right thing and move to Portland (one of my favorite cities of all time) to raise my daughter in a warm and open community as a writer. Somehow the invisible force field that the universe erects when you approach an other path didn't sanction it. then one day I tried on the idea of actually actively pursuing my lifelong dream of making movies- not just writing and offering my words for the world to absorb (i have no illusions that a lot of what i will create in my tenure as an artist will no be enjoyable so absorb stands) rather i want to MAKE something. I have never really wanted anything so badly in my life- not even true love as I would forgo romance and a secure partnership to make art- sorry fellas! my oldest friends are grateful that i am making the leap into the visions that were held hostage in my heart for so long... and funny but the universe has obliged me with Ruby slippers (I know in the book they were originally silver- i'm talking cinema here, a'ight?) to skip along down to LA LA land where I can hustle under the Hollywood sign along with the best of them. Turns out this is the best thing for Xoxa too because a heart happy mama is a good mama.

and now, Goethe...

Until one is committed,
there is hesitancy,
the chance to draw back,
always ineffectiveness.
Concerning all acts of initiative and creation, there is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans:
that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too.
All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents, meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.
Whatever you can do
or dream you can,
begin it.
Boldness has genius,
power and magic in it.
Begin it now.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Player Playing

"You are a player in this rigorous game of living . . .
The first rule is: every player dies;
none know when it's coming . . . Everyone has to play.
The game goes on forever - or until you win.
You win by finding death before it finds you.
The prize - is life."
- Barry Long"

more on this to come!